Dreaming On Ice Edges

So today hasn't been that much fun. Since it's been raining we haven't really gotten to go in the water at the beach. I did walk on the beach though when it finally let up but that wasn't for too long.

Now I'm just back in the condo watching Rambo: First Blood. Hahaha.

I really want to change my life around from the path it's going down. Last night I cracked again and got very upset and it sucks. I'm sorry I've been sounding like such a downer lately but I haven't had anyone to really talk to about how I feel.

I'm just so confused about everything and need someone to help me sort through it all.

I hope you all have a nice day.



I'll Shuck All The Light From My Skin

I'm really sorry for being away for so long! First my school kept playing games with me telling me I'd graduate this date and then turn around and say another date and pretty much made it pure torture for me. I have graduated though and I'm so happy to have gotten that out of the way. So for the past few weeks I've been trying to re-organize my all of my stuff and unpack it from the boxes. I'm almost done with that and now I'm in a nice little condo at St. Augustine, Florida. Hopefully I will remember to take a bunch of photos for my blog!

Since I've been gone I've got a new tattoo too.

If you can't read it well it says "For those who fight for it, life has a flavor the sheltered will never know." I heard this quote from the movie Sucker Punch (the Wise Man says it), which by the way is an amazing movie to me. Though the quote is orignally said by someone else (Roosevelt or a Nam soilder I believe. Some people say different things) I still feel very conected to it and the movie.

I've also gotten a new apron in the mail it's really cute.

Gosh, I feel like my brain is so all over the place right now. I'm one of those types of people who have to have everything organized or I get so confused about what all is going on and since I haven't been on here for so long I feel like I have so much to talk about but I'm confused in which order I should present it.

For those of you who haven't read any of my previous posts I have an eating disorder that I've been trying to recover from. I have all three: Binge, Anorexia, and Bulimia. Currently it's become really hard for me to feel okay about myself because I've binged so much when all of my issues with school came about (I'm a depressive eater. I have medicine that does put dopamine back into my system but I don't think it works as well as I would like.) My self-esteeme has dropped a lot and I keep debating on going back to fasting and purging. I know it's a bad way to loose weight but I sometimes feel that I need my eating disorder so I can have some sort of control over my life. When I eat like a normal girl I feel like everything is so overwhelming and I don't know how to think properly.

I've found myself liking a boy too and it is so strange for me because I haven't been able to see myself with a boy in over three years now. I've only been dating girls. It's so weird to me because I don't know how to feel about boys. When I think on it more though I think the reason why I don't like most guys is because they don't remind me of the guys I see and read in animes and mangas. Haha.

Here is two random photos of me.

Well, this post has been a very scattered one. I hope to get my blog back on track.

By the way Purity Ring's new album Shrines is amazing.

Clean, Clean, Clean...

Hey everyone. I wanted to let you know that I haven't abandoned you! I'm almost done sorting out my rooms. I have such small things that it takes a lot of my time >~< I'm going to be going to Florida this comming week so a lot of photos will be taken AND I will be taking my laptop so I can get back in the swing of blogging.

Take Care!!

Stress And School

I'm so sorry that I've kinda been missing. The school made me way past my graduation date because they lost a bunch of my tests and more plus I've been moving all of my stuff back home. Everything is slowly coming along though so I should be blogging regulary again! I'm quite excited! I hope everyone is doing well! I will catch up with you asap.

-Take Care <3

Graduating Soon?!

So this Saturday I am graduating from cosmetology school and I can't wait. School is just a big stress giver since the people who run it don't have any knowledge of how to run a business. I really can't wait to move back home to my nice and organized rooms and beauty products.

I went back to Greenville this weekend and I had SO much fun! I got to see my friends Sinia and Michelle. Me and Sinia roasted marshmellows, watched Zombie Land, I cut and colored her hair, and we went shopping. Here is a picture of her hair. I did a purple ombre.

After I got back from their house me and my parents watched Sucker Punch and I have to say I loved it. I liked all of the themes it displayed and the soundtrack was amazing in my opinion. I'm wanting a large poster of it to put in one of my rooms.

Ugh! For some reason this morning I feel really sick but I'm not sure why. I couldn't sleep well last night either. I think it's my nerves getting to me. My brain has been over loaded by so much crap that has been going on. I've become confused on how I feel about a lot of stuff. I guess I should take on all of this one day at a time.

Oh! I just recently got an instagram! My user name is KuroUsagiTabi . I would love to follow you because right now my home screen is so empty. Well, I'm going to end this for now! Hopefully I will have some new products to talk about to make my blog more interesting. I also have some new circle lenses that I could review as well!

Have a wonderful day!

Soft And Beautiful Hair

It seems that these past few weeks have flown by and in two weeks I will be graduating. I'm a tad stressed out about all the stuff that's going on but I'm trying to look forward to being back in Greenville in my house with all of my cleaning products. I miss things being organized. Well I'm about to tell you about a product that Paul Mitchell just released~ We call it the blonding system though the conditioner and shampoo can be used on any color of hair. Now this doesn't include the platinum shampoo because it has a purple mixture which is used to brighten blonde's hair. So this is what the Conditioner that I will be tell you about:

You can't really see the wording on the bottle but it says Intense Hydration and KerActive and those words are right on the mark for this product. I have a friend who's end were badly damaged from using an over-heated flat iron. You could see her split ends quite clearly until I used this conditioner. Not only did the appearance changed dramatically but so did the feel. Now I don't want you to think that this conditioner is going to make your hair look like you've just grown a whole new set of hair because somethings you just can't repair fully and you have to get it cut off sooner or later but I will say that this conditioner will most likely make you more satisfied with the look and the most important, the feel. When you are looking for this product please go to a salon to get it because if you have ever bought a Paul Mitchell product in a drug store and so on is counterfeit. John Paul DeJoria said in one of our educational videos that he doesn't distribute any of his products to non-salon franchises. So the products you see at Cosmo Prof, Ulta, and Sally's are real because they are stores meant for the hairstylist. I hope you can get your hands on this product because I LOVE it.

Well, I'm going back to sleep!

-Take Care

Love Spilled Over From Your First Words

So it turns out that I have acute bronchitis. I figured this much. I usually get really sick whenever the weather starts to do strange things. It's like my body doesn't know how to react to the humidity. Now I've lost my voice and have a nasty cough but I still have to go to school so I can graduate by the thirtieth.

Well getting sick did give me one thing, I got to go back home to see my doctor so I was able to open up a few of my packages I got in the mail.

Sorry for the quality because I took these photos on my phone but this right here is called a jitter bug! It vibrates to clean your contacts of protein build-up that gives the gritty feel. It also has a thirty day counter (I think the number is thirty) and will tell you when it's time to throw away your lenses though circle lenses usually last a year. It also has a mode where it pulsates throughout the night to keep the protein from building up. Oh! it has a suction cup too so that you can place it on your mirror. When I move back and start to wear my circle lenses again I hope to have a good review on the product after a month of being back. Here is a video I found on YouTube to show the pulsating.

I also got these adorable thigh garters! I can't wait to wear them out.

My, My Little Pony in human form print came in the mail too. I saw this and I thought it was so adorable. I'm usually embarrassed to buy things like this because it makes me feel like a little kid. I have no shame. Haha. also my "Never give up, be freED" bracelet came in and I'm so happy to have it.

I don't think I've shown this yet but one day when I was driving to my apartment my friend and me saw something really strange.

Yes, it's Garfield! Haha, I guess there is a first for everything.

Well, I'm going to get off of here and get ready for school. I probably should listen to the doctor's orders and stay home but I want to finish school as soon as possible. Wish me luck!